the PMS

It’s that time again. I think I’m most vulnerable at this stage. Anything emotional or slightly upsetting can switch on my tears button. People like to rationalize it by calling it the PMS or Pre-Menstrual Syndrome. I can’t agree more.

Just this evening at silat practice, we learnt a new move, but I was having some difficulty learning it. The ‘Buah Keputusan Sendeng Atas’. Tension sampai nak nangis. But alhamdulillah I didn’t…hehe

Then, when I got to my room, I wanted to write down the lesson, when kak matun offered some bread to Azza. I was quite hungry and wanted a bite too. I mentioned something and maybe it came out a bit too loud than I’d expected, that Azza commented on it. It’s not that she hasn’t commented before, she’s told me on numerous occasions and I realize meself that I have this implanted microphone in me. Usually I wouldn’t mind, but this time it hurt. I lost my appetite.

I had a bath and prayed maghrib. I was so tired that I slept in my telekung. I woke up to Che Arina’s voice, she told me to pass some notes she’d photostated from Asma’ to cbah and nik, then she said, ‘awak memang tanak kan?’ when in fact I did want them too… I got up feeling angry and confused and irritated.

I prayed isya’ and then read the Quran. As I was reading, the events of the day were flashing throughout my mind and I was so gerrrrram with the arina and her naiveness that i cried. And the tears were just streaming down my cheeks. Baru lega sikit dah let that out. Then since I still wasn’t feeling like studying, I went to the musolla for tasmi’. Alhamdulillah lepas walaupun agak kurang lancar. Then I went to asma’s room to pour out all my dissatisfaction… now, I feel better…

I have only two words for my defense, hormonal imbalance…heh.i'm not usually this kememeh so that reason must be it...

23.22

It’s not out yet,three weeks have past and we’re halfway through the fourth week of this block, yet still no news of last block’s exams results. And the 1st minitest is next week. Weird. Might as well not come out at all and say that everyone passed...yay…

IIUM…I’M IN LOVE

Heh…that’s the title for the forum we had last Monday night. I chose the title… catchy huh… We had it at the musolla. The panelists consisted of Prof Jalal from Kulliyyah of Pharmacy, Dr Khairi, an Opthalmologist, and Bro Azman from uia gombak. Nazhan was the mc. It was about relationships and marriages and sharing of life experiences other than academic-related issues.
There was quite a turnout but most were familiar faces and regulars of musolla-based programs. We didn’t quite achieve our target of attracting those that were really supposed to be targeted like the ones really involved in coupling etc.
So what did I learn? There’s a time for everything. Prof Jalal said that during his medical student years, he studied from 6pm to 2am and planned out all his studying. Now, at a ripe age of 70, he’s still active and ever knowledgable. He only thought of marriage after that, and even then it was arranged by his family. Bagus tak… I really have to get my priorities straight…nak jadi excellent doctor jugak…

Sacrificed leisure time

I’m gonna have to sacrifice spending time with the family this weekend so I can prepare for the minitest. Nak gi KL….waaaaaaaaaa… but I have to study. I’ll go back to jb the next weekend insya Alllah..

K, nak kena study sungguh2…

I’ll try to update next on Monday… pray for me Yung…

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22/12/04