the clock is ticking.

ramadhan is in its final phase.

the clock is ticking.

our oppurtunity to do as much ibadah with the promise of abundance of reward in the hereafter is nearing the end.

i wasted the first night and missed sahur because i was so tired (doing i dunno what)

the 2nd and 3rd night i slept with asma' at our blok's musolla. i left my warm bed but snuggled in my lovely sleeping bag at the surau. (konon2 iktikaflah hehe). alhamdulillah i could wake up for qiyam.

last night, there was a discussion at the surau so i slept in my room. i woke up just in time for sahur.

Ya Allah, please help me to become more rajin in performing my ibadahs.

and please let me find my misplaced usrah book.

something i have to work on..

it's been ages since the last time i updated. i just didn't feel like writing.

throughout this month of ramadhan i've been fortunate to have the oppurtunity to attend several good talks on ramadhan and others such as ustaz Arif Nazri (former imam of IIUM gombak mosque), brother azman from iium gombak, pak cahyadi takariawan (author of Di jalan dakwah aku menikah), daurah juz amma by ustaz aadtif. i have been meaning to write about them but procrastination and my hesitation got the better of me. i'll have to refer to the notes i jotted down later.

the only thing i can remember at the top of my mind is the daurah given by bro-in-law, abg atep. surprisingly, i wasn't even sleepy throughout his presentations even though there were many amongst my friends yag telah menjadi syahidah. he explained the gist of tafsir surah an-nas until al-fil in a way that was very interesting and pointed out new aspects that i have never been taught or discussed before. rase macam bersemangat je nak try out his method of explanation.

enjoying ramadhan

taken from kak aliya's blog. (boleh eh kak aliya)

advice from Umm Bilal during her talk on Ramadhan:

Just ENJOY ramadhan. Don’t count how many rakaats or juz you have done or read. If you are starting to count, then stop. even if you pray two extra rakaat in ramadhan (more than your usual fard) but you enjoy it (physically and spiritually), then it is better for you than praying 8-20 rakaats or finishing the Quran 3-4 times. if you are too tired (mothers frequently are), even reading the same surah the whole day, as long as you enjoy it and take it in and tadabbur, it is better than reading pages and pages of the Quran.

just as i was starting to feel left behind and burdened by the thought of the things that i should have been able to do rather what i have done in this month, these words are a wonderful reminder of how best to approach ramadhan.

aim high and enjoy the ride.

aim high as in listing down all the things i want to achieve and improve and enjoying the ibadah while i'm at it :)


in the mean time go here.

we tend to focus on some people and forget the struggle of others.
remember them the next time your at the ramadhan bazaar and can't decide what food to buy!

ramadhan and post mukhayyam

its day 4 of ramadhan and i'm rather behind in my Quranic reading. alamak kene read a lot more. tp kene tadabbur jugak ayat2 tu kan?? we do our best inshaAllah.

last weekend we had a mukhayyam at Casuearina resort, Pekan. despite the long holidays yang menggamit ramai untuk pulang ke rumah, many still could make it to the mukhayyam. on the whole, i learnt a lot. what i learnt is never go into paya bakau without proper shoes or they'll sink and get stuck in the mud and you'll have to dig with your hands to get them out. we learnt a lot about the ghazwahs and also sahabat and tabi'in in interesting ways. i guess its easier to remember that way rather than the regular halaqah discussions, which is still a good way for most of the fikrah and ilmiah discussions.

i had to be a group leader and also the ajk kesihatan so kesian my group when i was a bit late for the gatherings. my group asyek lambat je sampai kene denda. sian kitorang

abang atif came to give the pengisians. menarik jugak.

i thought i had it bad because of my vasovagal attacks, but a friend of mine has it worst when she passed out because of hypothermia (sejuk sangat pakai baju basah lepas keluar paya bakau). she has a history for passing out during stressful situations.

i'm thankful for everything i am. ada hikmahnya inshaAllah.

yesterday, i clerked a patient with teratoma. i took a long time detailing out her social history. more on that later.

happy fasting everyone.