post exams syndrome

i've just finished my surgical theory exams.

i tackled the MCQ'S like i always do. as much as i possibly can. setakat ni my "strategy" has worked for me.

OSCE keluar trochar for spc, proctoscope for haemorrhoid banding (i got this one wrong), IVU showing bilateral hydonephrosis and hydroureter, ERCP with dilated CBD and stones.

i nganga jap tengok trochar tu. never seen it before. and then looked at mr jun for help. he didnt give me the answer. i guessed it was for SPC and he said "ye la tu". yay, baru boleh jawab the questions hehe. thanx mr jun.

PMP case 1 MVA with splenic injury and shock, case 2 prostete carcinoma. asyek keluar je prostate ca tapi i asyek tak dapat jawab management dia. hopefully when i see a real case nanti, i'll be competent to manage the patient well.

k, pray that i can do my long case and short case well this wednesday. jzkk.
(can't wait to go see my sisters)

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i was listening to these words while i was revising yesterday and thought it was nice to digest and share with others. banyak kali je dengar. yesterday, i made the effort to type it out.

“Every vessel, every container, will only pour out what is contained in it, that is very obvious.

And so your tongue is your ability to express what lies in your spirit.
TV, movies, the friends you hang out with, the music you listen to, everything around you is environmental forces that shape how your being is and how your heart is.

When you open your mouth to speak, it’s like your heart is a sponge that absorbs all of this material from around you.

Essentially what you are doing is squeezing what is in you and what comes out is going to be what has been compiled in your mind and in your memory. Obviously, you can only express in your heart, what has been placed in it.

And so, in order for the outcome and the output from the tongue to be positive, the input in that needs to be positive; in spirit, in silence, in talking, and throughout our lives.”

-outlandish-


yep, you are what you eat. you are what you speak. you are what you read and write.

on a lighter note, it's a happy2 world around me.
dr melur delivered a baby girl today.
nik su delivered a baby boy today too.
2 of my friends are pregnant.
my best friends are no longer single and available. yay! except roomie that is.

sepetang bersama nenek

i went to nenek's house 2 days ago to return the book that aza borrowed. the nenek 'belanja'd us nasi goreng udang at a nearby stall siap bagi bawak balik udang salut tepung bungkus lagi.

my eyes look like racoon eyes

faizah ikut skali

eye update

thank u to those who have been concerned about the progress of my eyes and vision.

i went to see my ophthalmologist today. he said that the blurry image that i was complaining of was already estimated by the pre-op assessment machines. he asked me to be patient and wait for a month before i run to the optometrist begging for glasses so that i can see the finer details.

i have been so used to sharp images provided by my glasses that i thought that was normal. rupe2nye its not.

actually, i don't really know what normal vision is anymore. i've been wearing my specs for 14 years.

but now i can see and read without my specs. occasionally my vision fluctuates.

let's wait for another 3 weeks then.

adjusting

it feels different to not have to reach for my specs 1st thing in the morning.

i keep wanting to remove my specs everytime i take wudhu'.

i keep wanting to adjust my specs but find nothing there so i have to settle for rubbing around my eyes and my nasal bridge.

my vision is still not 6/6 in both eyes yet.

my left eye vision is still blurry but it's deficiency is covered by my right eye.

the resulting binocular vision is not that sharp giving me mild headaches upon straining the eyes.

my PRK experience (cont'd)

bye bye glasses

hantar nibah p terminal bas

terpakse jalan2 kat East Coast Mall with nibah to buy her stuff

penjagaku yg setia

thank you to my wonderful nurse!

my PRK experience

while my friends were getting married, i had other worries on my mind.

i had a PRK operation last thursday and am now still in the healing process.

it has definitely caused a dent in my bank account, but i think its a worthwhile investment.

driving back to kuantan with munibah. ayah and mak begitu concerned sekali.

me and fiza minutes before the PRK

post-op with local anaesthesia still in effect so belum pedih mate. half an hour after that baru i was writhing in pain.

1 day post op follow up.

eyes extremely painful and teary. cannot open eyes. had photophobia. nibah had to help me with my daily activities. now i know how it feels to be truly blind. glad it was temporary.

the 3 eye drops i have to use QID (4 times a day) and the eye shield i have to wear at night.

sunglasses

this is all i can put up for now.

more words later.