Thursday, October 27, 2005

End of Y2B2.

Alhamdulillah. Three tortorous days of exams are over. After a week of abstinence from the internet, i finally get to check my congested my mailbox.

Owh, i answered my papers so terribly. Waktu revision week asyik berangan je. More on that later.

Can't wait to go home at 2.30pm. Yay, i'll be sleeping at home for a week although i'll have to break my fast on the bus today.

Thursday, October 20, 2005

today's our last chance to see the GIT histology slides and histopatho slides at the lab and also the cadaver at the dissction room. starting tomorrow, it won't be a working day because of Nuzul Quran and monday is the Sultan Pahang's birthday. i came kinda late and missed the period where the masses were there so i observed the organs and cadaver alone. hish, tu lah lambat lagi...

the good thing is i get to hog the room all to myself and buat cam bilik sendri (didn't bring gloves, so had to touch with bare hands). talking aloud, i went over the important things that needs to remembered.

i absolutely disagree with the opinion that people who talk to themselves are lunatics for then i'd have to be categoried as such. i think i'm sane as any Tom , Dick or Harry (i hope they're sane too). more on this later.

*since this is Ramadhan, i ask of ur goodwill to pray that i pass my end block exams, if not with flying colours, enough for me to move on.

hmm, i do wonder who reads my blog besides the regulars that i know of? it does seem embarrasing to pour my heart out to strangers.

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

My pathetic rhyme

Kak yung's birthday was last Monday on the 17th of October. I tried my hand at rhyming some words to put on kak yung's card and came up with this pathetic and most ridiculous piece.

I didn't have time to come up with this rhyme by Friday (to give it sufficient time to arrive on Monday) so prolly kak yung will only get the card today.

Don't smirk too much while reading eh and do give allowances for an amateur rhymer.

Dearest Kak Yung,
No words can express,
These feelings of mine,
Of my eldest sister Zainab
Whose four years short of twenty-nine.
She's unpredictable, she's moody
And yells at us when we become unruly,
But that's just because
It was our fault truly
She's really kind, caring and thoughtful
Generous and very creative too,
But very protective of her sisters mind you!
If there's one thing,
Let me tell you this,
Who else can compare,
To my BIG SIS :)
On this birthday of yours,
So specail a day,
May Allah give you many rewards,
And bless you till May.
(forever actually)
pendek je... too long nanti tak muat card... hehe.
What do u think of it?
Too terrible??

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

Wanita haid boleh membaca Al-Quran?

Question:
Bolehkan seorang wanita yang haid membaca Al-Quran dan bagaimanakah dia hendak beramal pada malam lailatul qadar?

Answer:
Seorang wanita yang didatangi haid boleh melakukan semua ibadah kecuali solat, puasa, tawaf & iktikaf di masjid. Diriwayatkan bahawa Rasulullah tidak tidur sepanjang sepuluh malam terakhir di bulan ramadhan. Bangun malam bukan semestinya terhad kepada melakukan solat. Bahkan ia merangkumi pelbagai bentuk ibadat yang boleh ditafsirkan. Demikianlah cara ulama mentafsirkannya.
Memandangkan wanita kedatangan haid tidak boleh bersolat, dia boleh melakukan ibadat lain:
§ Membaca al-Quran
§ Berzikir
§ Istighfar
§ Berdoa
(diambil dr fatwa arab-saudi)

Hukum wanita yg didatangi haid memegang Quran:

HUKUM 1: TIDAK BOLEH
Hukum ini adalah berdasarkan firman Allah:
“(Al-quran) Yang tidak disentuh melainkan oleh makhluk-makhluk yang diakui bersih suci.” (56:79)

Sabda Rasulullah s.a.w.:
“tidaklah menyentuh al-Quran& tidak juga mushaf melainkan yang suci”
(Hadis Sahih: dr Amr bin Hazm r.a. dikeluarkan oleh Ibn Hibban, al-Hakim, al-Baihaqi dan lain-lain)

HUKUM 2: BOLEH
Mereka berpegang kepada kaedah seseorang wanita yang haid boleh melakukan semua perkara seperti biasa melainkan wujud dalil tepat(qathi) yg melarangnya. Dalam hukum memegang Quran, tiada hadis tepat menghalangnya

Ayat Al-quran yang dijdkan rujukan adalah tidak tepat (56: 77-80) kerana perkataan mutahharun sebenarnya merujuk para malaikat. Ibn Abbas berkata ayat 56:78, fi kitabim maknun yakni di lauh mahfuz, manakala mutahharun sebenarnya merujuk para malaikat.

Hadis yg dijdkan dalil melarang adalah juga tidak tepat sandarannya kerana perkataan al-Tahharun, suci memiliki byk erti, dan mengikut kaedah usul fiqh, sesuatu perkataan yang byk erti tidak boleh dibataskan kepada suatu maksud tertentu melainkan wujud petunjuk yg dpt mendokongi pembatasan tersebut.

Perkataan suci dlm hadis ini boleh bererti suci drpd najis seperti tahi & air kencing. Boleh juga bererti hadis besar, spt haid & junub. Boleh juga bererti mushrikin. Himpunan usul-usul hadis menunjukkan najis= kafir, (9:28) jadi suci=org muslim. Jadi larangan ini adalah kepada org mushrik, maka pendapat kedua lebih diterima.

HUKUM MEMBACA AL-QURAN
Hukum wanita yang didatangi haid membaca al-Qur’an.

Dalam persoalan ini terdapat sebuah hadis Rasulullah shallallahu 'alaihi wasallam:
Tidak boleh membaca sesuatu apa jua daripada al-Qur’an seorang yang dalam keadaan junub atau haid.
Hadis ini memiliki beberapa jalan periwayatan namun setiap darinya adalah dha‘if. Berkata Imam al-Nawawi rahimahullah (676H).

Adapun hadis Ibn Umar: “Tidak boleh membaca sesuatu apa jua daripada al-Qur’an seorang yang dalam keadaan junub atau haid” , maka ia diriwayatkan oleh al-Tirmizi, Ibn Majah, al-Baihaqi dan selainnya. Ia adalah hadis yang dha‘if, didha‘ifkan oleh al-Bukhari, al-Baihaqi dan selainnya. Kedha‘ifan yang terdapat padanya adalah jelas.
Namun sebahagian ahli fiqh tetap melarang seorang wanita yang sedang haid daripada membaca al-Qur’an kerana diqiyaskan keadaan haid kepada keadaan junub. Namun hal ini dianggap tidak tepat kerana dua sebab:

1. Peranan qiyas ialah mengeluarkan hukum bagi perkara-perkara yang tidak wujud pada zaman Rasulullah shallallahu 'alaihi wasallam. Apa-apa perkara baru yang wujud selepas itu, maka hukumnya disandarkan secara analogi kepada sesuatu yang sudah sedia dihukumkan pada zaman Rasulullah berdasarkan kesamaan sebabnya (‘illat). Adapun haid, maka ia adalah sesuatu yang wujud secara lazim pada zaman Rasulullah shallallahu 'alaihi wasallam. Apabila pada zaman itu Allah dan Rasul-Nya tidak menjatuhkan hukum melarang wanita yang haid daripada membaca al-Qur’an, maka tidak perlu bagi orang-orang terkemudian membuat hukum yang baru.

2. Haid dan junub adalah dua keadaan yang jauh berbeza. Junub adalah satu keadaan di mana seseorang itu memiliki pilihan untuk berada dalamnya atau tidak, dan seseorang itu boleh keluar daripada keadaan junub pada bila-bila masa melalui mandi wajib atau tayamum. Berbeza halnya dengan haid, ia bermula dan berakhir tanpa pilihan.
Sebahagian lain melarang atas dasar memelihara kesucian dan keagungan al-Qur’an. Justeru mereka berpendapat tidak boleh membaca (mentilawahkan) al-Qur’an kecuali beberapa perkataan atas dasar zikir dan memperoleh keberkatan.

Pendapat ini juga dianggap kurang tepat kerana seseorang wanita, sama ada dalam keadaan haid atau tidak, tetap dianggap suci dan dihalalkan bagi mereka semua yang dihalalkan melainkan wujudnya dalil yang sahih yang melarang sesuatu ibadah seperti solat, puasa, tawaf dan bersetubuh. Adapun pensyari‘atan mandi wajib selepas berakhirnya tempoh haid, ia adalah penyucian atas sesuatu yang sedia suci dan bukannya penyucian atas sesuatu yang sebelum itu bersifat najis. Oleh itu tidaklah berkurang sedikitpun kesucian dan keagungan al-Qur’an apabila ia dibaca oleh seseorang wanita yang sedang dalam keadaan haid.

Pernah sekali Abu Hurairah radhiallahu 'anh mengasingkan diri daripada Rasulullah shallallahu 'alaihi wasallam. Beliau balik ke rumah untuk mandi wajib dan kemudian kembali. Rasulullah bertanya kenapakah dilakukan sedemikian, lalu Abu Hurairah menerangkan bahawa tadi beliau sebenarnya dalam keadaan junub. Mendengar itu Rasulullah bersabda:
Subhanallah! Wahai Abu Hurairah! Sesungguhnya orang mukmin tidaklah ia menjadi najis. Sahih: Ringkasan hadis yang dikeluarkan oleh al-Bukhari dan Muslim, lihat al-Lu’ Lu’ wa al-Marjan (Fu‘ad Abdul Baqi; Dar al-Salam, Riyadh 1995) – hadis no: 210.

Kata-kata Rasulullah shallallahu 'alaihi wasallam di atas bersifat umum, menunjukkan bahawa seorang mukmin tidaklah ia sekali-kali akan berada dalam keadaan najis sekalipun dia dalam keadaan junub. Termasuk dalam keumuman hadis ini ialah wanita yang sedang haid.
Sebagai rumusan kepada kupasan ini, berikut dinukil kata-kata Syaikh al-Islam Ibn Taimiyyah rahimahullah (728H): Majmu al-Fatawa (Dar al-Wafa’, Kaherah 2001), jld. 26, ms. 191. Lihat juga pembahasan Ibn Hazm dalam al-Muhalla (Dar Ihya’ al-Turath al-Arabi, Beirut), jld. 1, ms. 78-85 (Masalah no: 116: Membaca al-Qur’an dan bersujud dan menyentuh mushaf).

Sesungguhnya para wanita mereka mengalami haid pada zaman Rasulullah shallallahu 'alaihi wasallam, maka seandainya membaca al-Qur’an diharamkan ke atas mereka (ketika haid) sepertimana solat, pasti baginda Nabi shallallahu 'alaihi wasallam akan menjelaskannya kepada umatnya. Baginda akan mengajarnya kepada para Ummul Mukminun (para isteri baginda) dan akan dinukil daripada mereka oleh orang ramai. Akan tetapi tidak ada satupun (riwayat) yang melarang yang dinukil daripada Nabi. Oleh itu hal ini tidak boleh dianggap terlarang padahal telah diketahui bahawa baginda tidak melarangnya. Justeru jika baginda tidak melarangnya padahal ramai wanita yang haid di zamannya, maka sesungguhnya ketahuilah bahawa ia sememangnya tidak haram.

Kesimpulan:

Allah Subhanahu wa Ta‘ala berfirman:
Alif-Lam-Mim. Kitab Al-Quran ini, tidak ada sebarang syak padanya; ia pula menjadi petunjuk bagi orang-orang yang (hendak) bertaqwa. [al-Baqarah 2:1-2]
Setiap individu Muslim yang bertaqwa memerlukan al-Qur’an sebagai kitab yang memberi petunjuk kepada mereka. Petunjuk ini diperlukan pada setiap masa dan tempat, termasuk oleh para wanita ketika mereka didatangi haid. Tidak mungkin untuk dikatakan bahawa ketika haid mereka tidak memerlukan petunjuk dalam kehidupan sehari-harian mereka. Atas keperluan inilah al-Qur’an dan al-Sunnah yang sahih tidak melarang para wanita yang didatangi haid daripada memegang dan membaca al-Qur’an seperti biasa. Adapun pendapat yang mengatakan ianya haram, ia adalah pendapat yang lemah sekalipun masyhur.


Rujukan:
  • Soal 93, pg 184. Buku Soal Jawab Puasa Berdasarkan Majlis Fatwa Tetap Arab Saudi:
    Oleh Sheikh Muhammad b Soleh Al-Munajjid, Sheikh Muhammad b Soleh Al-‘Uthaimin, Sheikh Abdul Aziz bin Abdullah b. Baz
  • Himpunan Risalah berkenaan puasa & isu-isu berkaitannya
    (Menelan Air Liur tidak membatalkan Puasa) oleh Hafiz Firdaus Abdullah
  • www.al-firdaus.com

(compiled by Sibah)

I'd like to add that Dr Arif, Imam masjd UIAM Gombak said that there is no khilaf regarding menstruating women being allowed to read the Quran, only whether they're allowed to hold it or not.

My 1st experience of Da’wah to non-muslims

Assalamualaikum wrmt wbrkt.

Dearest Z.K,

May u be in the best of imaan and amaals.

I just wanted to share an interesting experience I had today. This morning I participated in a program called “Da’wah to non-muslims” organized by the Da’wah & Tarbiah Buraeu here, a pilot project. Though I have neither prior experience nor the skills nor the knowledge in this area, and despite missing the pre-requisite talk for this programme given by Dr Abu Dhar Greengrass, I was determined on going and giving it a try.

There was around 30 sisters and 8 brothers. Our selected da’wah location was the population of Kuantan Parade and Berjaya Megamall. I was stationed at the 1st floor of Megamall with Munirah. We were supplied with several different pamphlets; some for the non-muslims, and some for the couples hanging out there. Since I still had some leftover Ramadhan pamphlets with me, I brought them along too.

We set out at 10 am after a short briefing session in the musolla. We weren’t given specific guidelines on how to go about it. We were free to use our own creativity for the task given which was basically the title of the programme. The only rule was that we were to approach those of the same gender only. Since it was still early and many stalls and shops were just opening and setting up, Mun and I wandered around the place searching for a target. Mun was relying on me since I’d had two experiences of approaching people before yet I felt as scared as she was. This was a totally different group altogether.

Non-muslims… how do you approach them? Where do we start? What questions do we ask? The pamphlets didn’t really help us to break the ice. After circling the entire floor a few times and assessing our target population, we were still afraid to make a move. The Chinese there were mainly the shop owners or stall handlers or sales assistant. We were afraid to bother them lest we were accused of stalling their business. There were hardly Indians there. Aaah, susahnye! We met Dr Arif, our Deputy Dean of Students’ Affairs, who happened to be unofficially supervising and monitoring our activities, and asked him. He told us to just start anywhere and go on from there. We braved ourselves to start.

Our first mad’us were two sales assistants who were blowing up balloons. We asked what they thought of Islam. She refused to answer and told us to talk to her boss who was currently speaking on the phone. He seemed busy and intimidating so we left, handed them a pamphlet and tried another.

We saw a Chinese girl sitting at one of the Starbucks tables and we thought we’d give her a try. She was apprehensive at first but we told her we just wanted to chat. She said she didn’t know much about Islam and basically answered ‘tak tahu’ to all our questions.

The third was a Chinese girl sitting at a booth promoting ‘ERICAN’, an English tuition centre. There was no one at the booth so we decided to approach her. I gave her the opportunity to explain what her institution had to offer. Then, when she finished, I asked if she could listen to what I had to explain. She agreed. I explained that we were from UIA and that we were med students. “UIAM?” “Yes”, we said. “Oh, I’ve seen it before. The campus in Gombak is very big indeed.” I spent several minutes talking about UIA. Then I asked what she thought of Islam. She didn’t know much. We gave her a pamphlet and hoped that she read it. She said she would. While we were explaing, her male colleague merely watched us. Since we weren’t supposed to approach guys, we didn’t talk to him.

One couple who saw us nearing, quickly got up and walked away. I saw that the girl already had a pamphlet in her hand. Hehe… (we also had to approach couples too, but i didn't approach any coz there weren't many on the 1st floor)

We walked on and saw two female Malay sales assistants who weren’t covering their aurah properly. ‘Might as well remind them, since this is Ramadhan’ I thought. And they did seem to have all the time in the world. No customers were in sight. I asked them whether they were fasting. Alhamdulillah they were. Did they know the benefits of Ramadhan? They answered a few. After beating around the bush, I went directly to the aurah issue and asked them why did we actually cover it? One girl answered to cover it from the sight of males. I was appalled and went on about how it was a commandment of Allah first and foremost. As I went on speaking, the other girl who was free hair suddenly began to be interested in her feet. I apologized if I’d said anything wrong and wished them well. I was quite surprised with myself for doing what I just did. I wonder if my method was appropriate. I pray that Allah gives them His guidance.

We approached another sales assistant, similar to the ones we’d just approached only this time at a stall selling bed sheets. We looked through the sheets. Darn, I wish I could buy them. Bila ada sale, my pockets mesti dry. Takde rezeki this time. When the girl came to our aid, we took the opportunity to strike a conversation. After several minutes of introductions we told her our actual reason. She said she would try to cover properly. May Allah help her and give her strength to carry it out.

It was already 12pm and I remembered that I had several items to buy. We went to the ground floor and headed for TESCO. Done with our shopping, we saw a Chinese man sitting at a bench. He was reading a pamphlet given by one of the ERICAN people. I sat next to him. I wanted to start a conversation but he seemed to avoid listening to me. Seeing that I was persistent, he responded. He was waiting for his son and grandson. I asked him the same question, what he thought of Islam. He said, ‘Islam bagus. Saya tak ada apa-apa masalah’ When I asked if he preferred a Malay or English pamphlet, he said, I can only read Mandarin. We gave it to him anyway. Probably his son could translate it for him.

Our time was up so we headed for the main area to wait for the others. Some had very interesting experiences. One even said that she saw a man crumple the pamphlet and threw it away. Another had picked up one that was lying on the floor. Our duty is only to spread the word. We cannot force people to accept Islam.

While we were waiting, the guy from ERICAN approached us to distribute flyers. Despite our orders, we interviewed him anyway. He was quite responsive and agreed to read the book on Islam that we gave him. The Chinese ERICAN girl whom we previously talked to approached us again. After speaking to her I got the impression that she thought we were promoting UIA. Hish, cemane bleh silap nih. I quickly corrected her perception. She said she hadn’t had time to read the pamphlet but will read it later. I gave her my number and email. Ya Allah, may you open her heart to embrace Islam.

When the bus came, we stopped at a mosque for Zuhr then went back to the Mahallat (hostel) for a post-mortem. Everyone was eager to share their experiences.

My own conclusion from this programme and resolutions;

  1. The Chinese community are comfortable with their situation and do not want to risk offending the Malays by commenting negatively on Islam. There were several Indians but I didn’t try to approach them. Takut, sebab derang kuat agama sket.
  2. The non-muslim community is ignorant about Islam because we don’t make the effort to educate them. To do that, we have to acquire the skills of how to approach them. What to say and not say.
  3. My knowledge and skills are very limited in this field of da’wah to non-muslim– I think I have to attend a comparative religion course and do some practical first (baru sedar how beneficial it is)
  4. I have a long way to go before I can be a good da’ie. No matter, let me take baby steps, one at a time and pray that I’ll become an efficient one someday. Ameen.

Oh, a funny incident happened in the evening. Tired as I was, I fell asleep straight away after completing some chores. My sleep was disturbed by my ringing phone. It was Azilah. I couldn’t imagine why she miscalled. Being mamai, the only thought that came to mind was to enquire whether I wanted to pesan any food from Pasar Ramadhan. I replied that I wanted mi hun sup and went back to sleep. Then Shereen miscalled. Why on earth….? Then it dawned upon me. I was late for tadarrus… hehe, apelah. I went downstairs for tadarrus smiling sheepishly and feeling deeply embarrassed. But they did go to Param after that :D hehe, lapar sgt kot sampai i only had food on my mind... malu...malu.

Sunday
11.55pm

ponderings upon the last four days

last friday was the minitest... another 2 blocks, 4 minitests and 2 final exams to go before my 1st professional exams.

yesterday the results came out. alhamdulillah, lulus. i keep getting the same marks as sibah. Allah tanak kitorang gadoh kot...hehe. Asma' maintains higher marks than all of us. well, Allah did promise that everyone will get what they deserve and she does deserve it.

owh, just before friday prayers, i had the chance to interview Dr Khurshid. i'm planning on writing an article abt him for the Catalyst. it will be my first proper article ever. can't wait to finish it.

Saturday ade MSC session with Mr Amin on forming a medical alumni and on journal writing, then there was iftar gabungan usrah reramai.

Sunday i joined program da'wah to non-muslims. It was truly interesting. a small scale, pilot project whcih will be improved and continued in future insyaAllah.

Monday i finished doing my part of the past year questions. petang ada meeting on mukahyyam Karisma Pahang which will be conducted at Tasik Bera this November, yay, can't wait. then malam ade iftar organized by the mahallat fellows. suka lah iftar free nih...hehe.

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

Helen Keller

i just found out that Helen Keller has the same birthday as me... hehe. no wonder i like her so much. suddenly thought of her words "the worst thing is for a person to have sight but has no vision"

Biography of Helen Keller
http://www.helenkeller.org/graphicversion/bio.html



The story of Helen Keller is the story of a normal child who, at the age of 18 months, was suddenly shut off from the world but, against overwhelming odds, waged a slow, hard but successful battle to re-enter that same world. The child grew into a highly intelligent and sensitive woman who wrote, spoke and labored incessantly for the betterment of others.

Helen was born in Tuscumbia, Alabama on June 27, 1880. However, her real life began one day in March of 1887, when she was almost seven years old. She was always to call that the most important day I can remember in my life. It was the day when Annie Sullivan, a 20-year-old graduate of the Perkins School for the Blind, came to be her teacher. They were inseparable until Annie’s death in 1936.

Even as a little girl Helen expressed a desire to go to college. In 1900, she entered Radcliffe College and graduated from there cum laude in 1904. She thus became the first deaf-blind person to graduate from college. Throughout these years, Annie Sullivan laboriously spelled books and lectures into her pupil's hand.

While still at Radcliffe, Helen Keller began the writing career, which was to continue for 50 years. In addition to The Story of My Life, she wrote 11 other books and numerous articles on blindness, deafness, social issues and women's rights.

Despite the broad range of her interests, Helen Keller never lost sight of the needs of others who were blind and deaf-blind. She was a personal friend of Dr. Peter J. Salmon, Executive Director of Helen Keller Services for the Blind (then known as the Industrial Home for the Blind) and lent her support to the establishment of what has become known as the Helen Keller National Center for the Deaf-Blind Youths and Adults. She was a visitor to a number of facilities and programs operated by IHB.

In 1936, Helen Keller moved to Westport, Connecticut, where she lived until her death on June 1, 1968, at the age of 87. In his eulogy at her funeral, Senator Lister Hill said of her, "She will live on, one of the few, immortal names not born to die. Her spirit will endure as long as man can read and stories can be told of the woman who showed the world there are no boundaries to courage and faith."

and also:
http://www.time.com/time/time100/heroes/profile/keller01.html

This endearing story is highly motivating. I love watching Disney Channel's "The Miracle Worker" about her life story. in that story, she was protrayed as a very arrogant and stubborn kid. How could a blind and deaf two-year-old be so spoilt? i absoltely respect the tutor's patience and perseverence.

if a blind and deaf person could enter university and succeed, how can I, equipped by Allah with complete senses, do otherwise?

-awla, who's supposed to be preparing for MINITEST 2 this friday-



Monday, October 10, 2005

10 Things You Should Know About A True Blue Johorean

(source: alumniSMIH milis)

hmm..betul ke ni?? let's go thru 'em, shall we..
(btw, i never claim to be a johorean, i just LIVE in Johor)

1. They end 9 out of 10 sentences with Ekkk...
Ekk ialah trademark orangJohor. Digunakan di hujung SETIAP ayat menggantikan tanda soal (questionmark). Contoh :- Ni awak punyer ekk? Nama awak saper ekk ? Kenapa kitekaler tak cantik ekk ? Dan macam-macam ekk lagi. Aku teringat semasa akusekolah dulu, aku dan member sebelah aku boring yang amat di dalamkelas,so to keep us awake, kami dok mengira berapa kali Cikgu sebut ekk. In aperiod of 40 minutes, dekat 100 kali! Lepas tu kami gelarkan Cikgu tu asCikgu Fadzillah* Ekk. (*bukan nama sebenar).

*drlola: may be ade jugak lah sket2 i amalkan..

2. They refer to Johor Bahru as Johor and not JB.
Kalau orang di negeri Johor sebut Johor, it meant Johor Bahru (JB), the city dan bukan Johor,the state. Biasa digunakan oleh mereka yang tinggal di luar bandar JohorBaruseperti di Masai-chusettes umpamanya. Contoh : Beb, gua nak turun Johorlaa. Lu mahu ikut gua tak? So, if you ARE already in Johor, tak kira didaerah mana - if the locals kata nak pergi Johor, it means nak ke JohorBahru. Jangan pulak buat lawak bongok** berkata, " Eh, lu kan dah adakatJohor?" Or worse, jangan memandai nak tambah ekk with that question.

*drlola: maybe..penah dengo gak

3. They pronounce Muar as MUOR. (kena juih bibir sikit)
In fact youpronounce everything that ends with "AR" as "OR". Contoh : Aku kenapakaiseluor besor untuk main bolar kat Muor besok. (Aku kena pakai seluarbesarnak main bola di Muar besok). Aku teringat Kakak tegur aku bila akucakapmacam tu. Kenapa Mama sebut besar, BESOR ? Slipper , SLIPPOR ? Akutergelak. Aku cuma speak like that bila berjumpa dengan true blueJohoreanaje. Lapo (lapar), penampor (penampar), ulor (ular), pagor (pagar) danlain-lain.

*drlola: slalu gak dengo orang ckp cam nih

4. They are brash with a CRAZY sense of humour.
Honestly, I belum pernahjumpa orang Johor yang serious or square to a T. Or cannot take a joke.Walaupun pendiam atau pemalu , but their sense of humour boleh tahan gak.Almost all of them (yang aku jumpa dan kenal lah) are either loyar buruk or bigor **. Baik di kampung mahu di Bandar. The sense of humour is unique that I find kadang-kadang orang luar (non-Johorean) agak takut with the brashness of budak-budak Johor. (Did you see Majalah 3 the other night -see how Tunku Yem (nama manja Tunku Mahkota Johor) bercerita pasal anakanda dia Tunku Ismail ? Haha.... that is exactly my point!)

*drlola: am i zany becoz i live in johor??

5. Diorang ada ENDUT **.
Kalau tak pernah berendut, sure pernah ada endutor busuk-busuk pun teringin nak ada endut. Contoh ayat : Haa...kau dah ada endut yer ? Kau pergi berendut kat mana ? Orang berendut dia pun nak berendut.

*drlola: all this while i thot they were saying berende'... hish jahil2 awla nih.. but endut itself tapenah gune

6. Diorang Makan Gula Tarik, Sagun, Gula Kandy, Bobotok....
Dah lama akutak tengok atau makan gula tarik, sagun or kandy. Ada lagi ke bebenda nikat Johor ? Aku tak boleh nak describe dengan teliti these things cos ithas been 30 years since I last tasted them. Seperti Kak P cakap -makananseperti botok-botok. Kalau out of Johor, botok-botok dikenali dengannamaPAIS IKAN. Jangan tanya aku how to describe the ingredients cos aku takberapa gemar makan sebab guna banyak sangat daun ( aku tak suka makansayur- especially ulam). Yang aku tahu - pakai daun segala daun, termasukdaunbetik dan gunakan kari ikan and balut dengan daun-daun tu dan kukus. Akupernah tanya my Dad dulu - kenapa buruk benor nama dia bebotok.Then my Dad cerita : Di zaman dulu ada seorang nenek yang tinggalseorangdiri. Everyday cucu dia akan datang bawak makanan. Nenek ini suka sangatpais ikan dengan bubur so dia suruh cucu ni bawak tetiap hari. Bila cucutubawak makanan lain, Nenek akan tanya " Mana Bubur Tok? ". Lama-lamaBuburTok jadilah Bebotok - kesan dari cakap cepat-cepat. Itulah ceritanya.Akukecik lagi masa my Dad cerita tu. So, kalau dia kelentong aku - maka kelentonglah cerita bebotok tu. Sekian adanya.

*drlola: never heard of all the food mentioned except for sagun and gule kandy.. i think tempe shud also be added. prof tahir said tempe contains mould...yuck, but i like it still... harap kan immune sysytem intact jelah..

7. Pernah (or berangan nak) jadi Mat Rock .
Aku rasa sebab kedudukanJohordekat dengan Singapore, sebab itulah pengaruh Barat di Malaysia masukmelalui Johor dulu. Itu teori aku lah. But kalau ikutkan sejarah Johor,Sultan yang mula-mula kawin dengan Mat Salleh pun Sultan Johor(Almarhum).So, tak heranlah kalau kumpulan Rock kat Malaysia ini semua ada susurgalurdari Johor. Amy, Zainal Abidin, Nash etc. Boleh pakai ke teori aku ni?Jangan aku kena pancung dengan Sultan, dah ler. Ampun Tuanku !

*drlola: i absolutely exclude myself from this category.. tak hingin...

8. Kenduri Kawin Ada Telur Pindang
Telur pindang ialah telur ayam yangdirebus dengan segala macam rempah dan dedaun untuk mendapatkan thatspecial taste. Lepas rebus, telur akan berwarna cokelat. Both kulit danisi. I don't like to eat telur pindang, so I cannot to describe thetaste.Normally orang buat telur pindang ni for special occasion, sepertimajlisperkahwinan. Zaman dulu-dulu, you can tell the social class of the tuanrumah - normally orang kaya-kaya jer buat telur pindang ni sebab ianyarumit dan makan masa berjam-jam therefore menggunakan kos yang tinggi.

*drlola: yup, tak sah tade telur pindang... but i don't really like it..

9. Tidur atas LECA** (rhyme with letak and baca, the non-baku way).
Bajusimpan dalam GEROBOK **.

*drlola: huh? tapenah dengo pun leca...

10. They never watch RTM sebab semua cerita dah tengok kat TV Singapore!
When I was growing up, aku cukup suka tengok TV Singapore sebab iklandiasemua dari overseas, very menarik. Besides the cerita yang terkinilah.Yangaku suka ialah iklan jeans Levi's (Let your love flow), iklan lagu Coke(I'd like to build the world a home), iklan Kodak (Times of Your Life-PaulAnka). Paling syok ialah masa Christmas, iklan dan lagu semua best-best.(But itu dulu, sekarang aku rasa semua rancangan sudah semasa.) Well, TVSingapore cuma dapat ditengok oleh penduduk JB dan kawasan yang sewaktudengannya. As you go further up north (of Johor), you can see aerial TVsemua setinggi pokok kelapa - semata-mata nak dapatkan siaran fromSingapore!

*drlola: hehe... can't deny it..

Apa lagi EKK?Kamus Johor :
Bongok - bodoh
Bigor - gila-gila, contoh :- Apek Senario tu macam budak BIGOR ekk ?
Endut - makwe/pakwe. Awek/balak. Boifren/girlfren. Boleh digunakan tanpamengira jantina.
Berendut - berpasangan.
Pergi berendut - dating.
Botok-botok, bebotok - sejenis makanan menggunakan ikan, ditambahmemacamdedaun, letak serbuk kari (don't ask me - aku tak reti buat) dan dibalutdengan daun betik, diikat dengan sebelum dikukus. Alah, macam Pais Ikantuh.
Leca - tilam. Normally dibuat sendiri menggunakan kekabu (orang zamandulu-dulu semua DIY - tak ada Vono, Slumberland ).
Gerobok, Gobok - cupboard. Almari. Tak kiralah simpan kain baju ke,simpanpinggan mangkok ke.

*drlola: i'd add the word 'bengang'. most johoreans use it for "malu" whilst others use it for "marah", konfius gak dulu...
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Ada beberapa perkara lagi yang penulis (whoever he is) tak masukkan atau segan nak masukkan and was added by pak cik norkhair:
a. Ajaran sesat juga banyak di Johor.
b.Orang Johor bangga dengan sekolah agama sebelah petangnya.
c. UMNO memang kuat di sini.
d. Majlis marhaban dan yasinan selalu diadakan
e. Kalau di Perak, 'awak' bermakna saya. Di Johor 'kawan' bermakna saya.
f. Selain bebotok, ada lagi beberapa makanan yang specal di Johor - otak-otak, mee bandung Muar, mee rebus Johor, soto
g. Bukan mat rock saja, tapi ramai penyanyi berasal dari Johor - eg. Sharifah Aini, Fauziah Latif dan terkini Mawi.
h. Orang Johor sambut raya puasa selama sebulan!

*drlola geleng2 kepala

Afraid of blood? You must be joking.

It’s absolutely embarrassing. If my seniors’ theory is true, then I’m hopeless. I can’t possibly be afraid of the sight of real blood. It just cannot be true. A medical student can’t be afraid of blood. It’s unheard of. Absurd. Yet, how else could I explain what happened this afternoon. I’m absolutely worried.

I didn’t sleep right after Subuh like usual. I asked Kak chik to call me so I could update her on what I’d learnt from the Fiqh Sawm course yesterday. Then I started reading some of the notes that badly cried for my attention. Several minutes into my reading I was already nodding off. I slept all the way till noon. Waking up with a throbbing headache I went to the toilet to wash some clothes just till my head cleared, to be followed by a much-needed bath.

Kak Maton was using the main counter for washing clothes so I proceeded to the one adjacent to it. I hardly use that sink because it clogs easily. Having no choice, I opened the tap. When I wanted to close it, some of the metal covering the tap peeled off and grazed my skin leaving two minute metallish particles under the skin anterior to the interphalangeal joint of my right thumb. I could remove only one of it, the other remained stuck deep to the skin, in the subcutaneous tissue perhaps. I continued to wash my clothes despite feeling slight twinges now and then.

I wanted to remove the other particle before taking my shower because I didn’t want it to cause me any future problems, might as well deal with it right away. I went back to my cubicle and tried to pull it out using a nail clipper (huh, tak basuh pun thus it was hardly sterile. I was so careless; I could have risked getting an infection). Finding it difficult to do it myself, I asked Kak Rena to help me. I cringed every time she touched my exposed subcutaneous tissue, but I could bear the pain as long as she managed to get it out all the while imagining how non-sterile and harmful that procedure was. After several trials she managed.

When I looked at it, a minute amount of blood was seeping out of the particular injury. Suddenly I felt queasy. My vision started to blur. I went to my room and lay on my bed. Slightly relieved, I thought that shower would come in handy to revive my strength. Still entertaining the infection theory, I took my small bottle of Dettol and proceeded to the lavatory. Applying some of the antiseptic to my thumb, I was psychologically calmed.

I went first to relieve my scowling rectum and found myself trembling and feeling very lightheaded. However, emptying my colon did provide some form of respite. Then I took that much-needed shower.

Feeling revitalized, I forwarded my theory of septicemia being the cause of my near-faint incident. Kak Rena and Kak Wani laughed liked I’d said the most absurd thing. Kak Rena said I was probably hypoglycemic (low sugar in the blood). Feeling really embarrassed, I strongly denied it. It wasn’t even evening yet, takkan I dah hypoglycemic, kememehnya. When kak maton came in, she joined the other two and laughed until she nearly cried. Septicemia (a systemic disease associated with the presence and persistence of pathogenic microorganisms in the blood or their toxins) is a severe condition which the doctors try their best to avoid and usually does not occur with minute injuries. Furthermore, I was unlikely to be immunocompromised thus septicemia can hardly be a differential diagnosis.

Ok, so I might have gone a little far in my theory but what about the aseptic (non-sterile) method just now, couldn’t that have affected me in any way? This statement triggered another round of laughter.

If such an acute (rapid) response could not be due to infection or hypoglycemia, what else could explain it?

Only then did I take into account the possibility of my being afraid of blood. I tried to remember previous occasions and compare the symptoms.

Once during a camp, XREK 2000 to be exact, I accidentally cut my finger while peeling and halving tapiocas. I was being a wise-ass and tried to emulate the experienced pakcik who cut them using a parang. So clever was I that the first time I did it, it cut all through the diameter of the tapioca and also a bit of my left jari telunjuk. Blood was oozing out of the cut like running water from a tap, I didn’t know what to do. The mak cik took me to a nearby well and poured water over it. I screamed in agony. She then smothered minyak gamat all over it. My world suddenly became bleak. I remember them bringing me inside and laying me on the bed. The best outcome of it was I got to drink air kelapa muda because they believe that orang yang accident ni sebab ade kempunan bende so they asked me if I wanted anything. Hehe, I was actually eyeing the young coconuts being peeled by the boys. Dapat jugak I rase a bit.

Then, in matriculation, during the second (the first was ok) dissection practical, I did feel somewhat queasy bending over the opened abdomen of a mouse. I had to get some air for a moment before returning to my work. Penat kot hari tuh.

Another incident occurred at my kampong during raya. My aunt’s Indonesian maid accidentally cut her hand on a broken glass. I was the nearest person around. Blood was gushing out of her finger. My instincts told me to put it under running water but she refused fearing it might hurt even more. Mak Ngah came to my rescue (or maybe HER rescue would be more appropriate) and immediately poured minyak angin over the finger and bandaged it. Slowly, I backed away from the scene feeling a touch of lightheadedness. I felt weak throughout the remainder of the day.

I thought I was over these faintish incidences. I’m absolutely exasperated that that is not the case.

Auw, how embarrassing it is to have to admit that I nearly fainted because of an infinitesimal amount of blood which could hardly be seen.

Can I still opt for another explanation?

May be there’s a psychological explanation to it. Perhaps my naivety and lack of clinical knowledge and experience led me to worry needlessly about the risk of infection. I became so overwrought by the possible outcome that it happened just because I believed it could happen? Could that be possible?

I prefer that to the fear-of-blood theory. Imagine how disastrous that can be for me. It could interfere with my medical training. I might not be able to graduate from med school if I could not draw blood without fainting first. What about all the bloody operations and gruesome conditions of patients? I shudder at the mere thought of it all.

2.59 am
10 October 2005

Thursday, October 06, 2005

Irritating

I don’t know which hurts more. Her not telling me that she had a problem with me or the fact that she went out of her way to avoid me. When another friend told me about it after the first lecture was over, I felt like a sharp knife had pierced through my thoracic wall and pericardium right into the centre of my pacemaker. M y heart skipped a beat.

I didn’t know she was so irritated by me that she couldn’t stand even sitting next to me in class. Thinking about it there were a couple of times that her actions should have given me the hint, but of course I was oblivious because I would never ever have expected this from her.

She’s one of my closest friends. I tell her and confide in her mostly everything. She tells me every time she’s annoyed with certain individuals and what she does about it. I can’t get over the fact that she was irritated with ME for so long but didn’t have the guts to tell ME. Okay, so some of the things I do or say can be irritating. Then tell me so I can do something about it rather than you be silent and I might continue doing it, further aggravating the situation.

I told myself to keep it together and be tough. Accept the comment like a man. The thing is, I’m not a man. I’m a young woman. I could only ‘bertahan’ for so long. My usual defense mechanism from being hurt which is by numbing myself could only last a while. When recess came and we had tadarrus Al-Quran in groups I was depressed even more by my fumbling over several Quranic verses and tajwid. When I prayed dhuha, I couldn’t prevent the stream of tears from my congested lachrymal glands from flowing. Alhamdulillah no one noticed.

After that was a seminar on Renin-Angiotensin System. I stayed until the second speaker and then headed towards the computer lab. An email from a friend cheered me up and made me forget my melancholy. I busied myself with the internet all afternoon. At 2pm, we had a short biochemistry practical and then I went back to the hostel and slept.

The problem kept nagging at me even during Tarawikh prayers which is by the way, one of the reasons which makes me glad I’m in UIA. The Tarawikh prayers are done with short recitations of the Quranic verses in sequential order and a tazkirah between the 8 raka’ahs. All those selawat2 tah ape2 was absent :)

Just now, I went to Sibah’s room and had to see her. She didn’t sit beside me in class today and yesterday so I wondered whether she was angry with me too. I might have broken down if that were the case. Alhamdulillah she had other reasons. She has the flu and the front seats were too cold. I’m sorry for having to disturb sibah and pour out my woes on to her but my turbulent thoughts were depressing me and disturbing my peace and also concentration. I broke into tears in front of Sibah. (ape la awla nih kememeh betul..asyek nangis je… PMS kot)

So what do I do now? Give my friend some space and pray that she’ll tell me herself what I did wrong. May Allah help us both. (11.08pm, 5/10/05)
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Its 11.55pm. My annoyed friend just came to my room with red swollen eyes. Sibah has just been to her room. Darn, I didn’t expect everything to happen so quickly. She told me her reason. She was actually bengang with some things I said during the du’at apprentice program. She thought I’d notice the signs but apparently I did not. I dunno what I was thinking to have made me oblivious of peoples’ reactions. Usually I pride myself on being observant. A blow to my ego indeed. And then throughout Monday it was eating away at her and whatever I said was misinterpreted. Naturally, she’d want to avoid me, right.

Sheesh, Awla, you should be more sensitive in future and mind your words. Who knows who else has been hurt. I know Azzahra has suffered countless times but that’s mutual. It goes both ways…hehe. We have a love-hate relationship. We repel each other but since we’re stuck with each other, we try to make the best of things.

The moral of the story is,
  1. if you have nothing good to say, then better remain silent. That would be more appreciated.
  2. the worst thing you could do (besides maksiat to Allah) is hurting people you love especially family members and close friends.

p.s... at the time this was posted, the writer and her friend are good pals again :)

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

Happy fasting!


It's wonderful to have an occasion like Ramadhan to receive messages from friends, especially from those i rarely or have never ever heard from.

Examples;

Dr Maimunah and Kak Sazira whom i met at Kem Kepimpinan Beliawanis in Kem Lagenda Gunung Ledang.

Kak Azlina whom i met at Sunathon.

Azira, my highschool classmate who has never ever messaged before.

Kak Zah, whom i used to be close with.


To all who make time to read my nonsensical ramblings, Ramadhan Mubarak to you. May Allah forgive our sins and shower us with blessings in this wonderful month.
May we graduate form this madrasah with flying colours.

A book of du'as

This book of du'as actually is the property of the musolla but i'm borrowing it for a while until i can buy an exact copy. I really like it because it doesn't just state the du'a but also it's source indicating it's authenticity. (it is evident from the crease that i've nearly worn it out)
Kalau camni senang sket lah nak caya whatever du'a and yakin dgn ape yg diamalkan.
The morning and evening prayers are slightly different from the ma'thurat but i believe either one can be practised.


Tuesday, October 04, 2005

The pills

My actual purpose for going home last time was to obtain these pills. Mak bought 'em for me. Now i have to take three tablets twice daily (sepatutnya thrice). I pray that they are effective.

one bottle down, five to go..


Mak jotted the list of food that Prof Azimahtol asked me to avoid including:

  1. Soy bean
  2. Evening Primrose oil
  3. Oily food
  4. Ayam/daging
  5. Cakes, biskut
  6. Keju, butter
  7. Ais krim

*besides EPO, the rest i'm kinda fond of. once in a while boleh la kan...

The new MSC line up 2005/06

The office bearers of the Medical Students' Society

I thought i'd be retiring this year but it seems that i will be around for another term.
May Allah help me in my endeavours and make this society more organized and efficient. Ameen.