post exams syndrome

i've just finished my surgical theory exams.

i tackled the MCQ'S like i always do. as much as i possibly can. setakat ni my "strategy" has worked for me.

OSCE keluar trochar for spc, proctoscope for haemorrhoid banding (i got this one wrong), IVU showing bilateral hydonephrosis and hydroureter, ERCP with dilated CBD and stones.

i nganga jap tengok trochar tu. never seen it before. and then looked at mr jun for help. he didnt give me the answer. i guessed it was for SPC and he said "ye la tu". yay, baru boleh jawab the questions hehe. thanx mr jun.

PMP case 1 MVA with splenic injury and shock, case 2 prostete carcinoma. asyek keluar je prostate ca tapi i asyek tak dapat jawab management dia. hopefully when i see a real case nanti, i'll be competent to manage the patient well.

k, pray that i can do my long case and short case well this wednesday. jzkk.
(can't wait to go see my sisters)

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i was listening to these words while i was revising yesterday and thought it was nice to digest and share with others. banyak kali je dengar. yesterday, i made the effort to type it out.

“Every vessel, every container, will only pour out what is contained in it, that is very obvious.

And so your tongue is your ability to express what lies in your spirit.
TV, movies, the friends you hang out with, the music you listen to, everything around you is environmental forces that shape how your being is and how your heart is.

When you open your mouth to speak, it’s like your heart is a sponge that absorbs all of this material from around you.

Essentially what you are doing is squeezing what is in you and what comes out is going to be what has been compiled in your mind and in your memory. Obviously, you can only express in your heart, what has been placed in it.

And so, in order for the outcome and the output from the tongue to be positive, the input in that needs to be positive; in spirit, in silence, in talking, and throughout our lives.”

-outlandish-


yep, you are what you eat. you are what you speak. you are what you read and write.

on a lighter note, it's a happy2 world around me.
dr melur delivered a baby girl today.
nik su delivered a baby boy today too.
2 of my friends are pregnant.
my best friends are no longer single and available. yay! except roomie that is.

sepetang bersama nenek

i went to nenek's house 2 days ago to return the book that aza borrowed. the nenek 'belanja'd us nasi goreng udang at a nearby stall siap bagi bawak balik udang salut tepung bungkus lagi.

my eyes look like racoon eyes

faizah ikut skali

Prayer of Moses Maimonides

Almighty God, Thou has created the human body with infinite wisdom.

Ten thousand times ten thousand organs hast Thou combined in it that act unceasingly and harmoniously to preserve the whole in all its beauty the body which is the envelope of the immortal soul.

They are ever acting in perfect order, agreement and accord.

Yet, when the frailty of matter or the unbridling of passions deranges this order or interrupts this accord, then forces clash and the body crumbles into the primal dust from which it came.

Thou sendest to man diseases as beneficent messengers to foretell approaching danger and to urge him to avert it.

Thou has blest Thine earth, Thy rivers and Thy mountains with healing substances; they enable Thy creatures to alleviate their sufferings and to heal their illnesses.

Thou hast endowed man with the wisdom to relieve the suffering of his brother, to recognize his disorders, to extract the healing substances, to discover their powers and to prepare and to apply them to suit every ill.

In Thine Eternal Providence Thou hast chosen me to watch over the life and health of Thy creatures.

I am now about to apply myself to the duties of my profession.

Support me, Almighty God, in these great labors that they may benefit mankind, for without Thy help not even the least thing will succeed.

Inspire me with love for my art and for Thy creatures.

Do not allow thirst for profit, ambition for renown and admiration, to interfere with my profession, for these are the enemies of truth and of love for mankind and they can lead astray in the great task of attending to the welfare of Thy creatures.

Preserve the strength of my body and of my soul that they ever be ready to cheerfully help and support rich and poor, good and bad, enemy as well as friend.

In the sufferer let me see only the human being.Illumine my mind that it recognize what presents itself and that it may comprehend what is absent or hidden.

Let it not fail to see what is visible, but do not permit it to arrogate to itself the power to see what cannot be seen, for delicate and indefinite are the bounds of the great art of caring for the lives and health of Thy creatures.

Let me never be absent-minded.

May no strange thoughts divert my attention at the bedside of the sick, or disturb my mind in its silent labors, for great and sacred are the thoughtful deliberations required to preserve the lives and health of Thy creatures.

Grant that my patients have confidence in me and my art and follow my directions and my counsel.

Remove from their midst all charlatans and the whole host of officious relatives and know-all nurses, cruel people who arrogantly frustrate the wisest purposes of our art and often lead Thy creatures to their death.

Should those who are wiser than I wish to improve and instruct me, let my soul gratefully follow their guidance; for vast is the extent of our art.

Should conceited fools, however, censure me, then let love for my profession steel me against them, so that I remain steadfast without regard for age, for reputation, or for honor, because surrender would bring to Thy creatures sickness and death.

Imbue my soul with gentleness and calmness when older colleagues, proud of their age, wish to displace me or to scorn me or disdainfully to teach me.

May even this be of advantage to me, for they know many things of which I am ignorant, but let not their arrogance give me pain.

For they are old and old age is not master of the passions.

I also hope to attain old age upon this earth, before Thee, Almighty God!

Let me be contented in everything except in the great science of my profession.

Never allow the thought to arise in me that I have attained to sufficient knowledge, but vouchsafe to me the strength, the leisure and the ambition ever to extend my knowledge.

For art is great, but the mind of man is ever expanding.Almighty God!

Thou hast chosen me in Thy mercy to watch over the life and death of Thy creatures.

I now apply myself to my profession.

Support me in this great task so that it may benefit mankind, for without Thy help not even the least thing will succeed.

THE SECRET

when kakyung told me about THE SECRET and The Law of Attraction, Prof Muhaya's talk came into mind. it was exactly what she mentioned in her talk. alhamdulillah she shared it with us.

do look it up. it's a very interesting concept.