a few thoughts

on the right is my word cloud. to do one, go here.
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i'm actually very tired rite now. i've been yawning for about 2 hours but when you're in front of the computer, the time just flies by.

i've been home for about a week now. i haven't done anything much besides watching cds and reading a few books including Michael Palmer's "The Patient". hmm, Ice Age 2 n Cheaper by the dozen 2 are just worth watching once. Almost heaven and corpse bride are sweet. i wonder about Tim Burton's obssession with Johnny Depp. Buli Balik n Baik Punya Ciluk boleh la tahan. the actors are all the same, tukar roles je. i'm kinda mean when it comes to malay movies. i just cannot accept how they portray psychiatrists. tah pape ntah.

i'm supposed to be working on finding sponsorship for MIN which will be held in just 2 weeks time buuuuuut my malas nature has gotten the better of me. i'm rather slow in my progress. i have to work fast actually since i'm due to be in kl this sunday for my babysitting job.
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hmm, something interesting happened today. Ayah's friend, pakcik Shahul came to the house. he was ayah's junior when we were in newcastle. ayah asked whether munibah and i remembered him but we just couldn't. he was kinda disappointed, so was ayah. i'm supposed to remember becoz i was 4/5 years old at that time. ayah made me go thru the uk pictures album to find his pictures. we did find the picture but it still didn't ring a bell. pakcik said that we used to play with him and follow him around a lot. nope, no memories of that at all.

although we couldn't remember much, niebah and i had fun poring over those pics. selekeh gile kitorang sume, except kakyung sebab kakyung dah besar sket mase tuh. sume gamba rambut terkeluar dari tudung (read: pakai tudung gak tau). niebah n i yang paling fashionable. kak chik was absolutely cute and adorable with her japanese looks. kakngah pun selekeh gak :P i luv the dresses mak used to sew for us. they were really beautiful. there were loads of pics of us girls. makes me think of ayah bringing us girls to programmes becoz he had not a son at that time. we looked at the makciks and pakciks and friends in those pics. we didn't remember many of them.

all this reminded me of a conversation i had with a senior about when exactly our memories formed. i said i could only remember as far back as my childhood days in Newcastle, when i was 4-5. even those are vague. hmm, note to self, must find out more on memory formation.

UK days... wonderful days of my childhood. at least the ones that i can remember la.
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i watched HP and the Goblet of fire for the 2nd time with niebah. i still don't like the present Dumbledore. and Cedric's just ever so handsome. can't get McGonagal's words out of my mind, "babbling , bumbling band of baboons" :P

Pics of Nawaz

yeye, i'm gonna be babysitting nawaz for a week.

Motivational med books anyone?

Anyone interested in obtaining these two books can contact me. I don't have any stock with me but i know whom i can get 'em from.

the 1st book costs RM15 and contains wonderful insights on the life of medical practitioners in various fields.

the 2nd costs RM20 and has many useful tips for medical students.

they're both good reads.

ps... I PASSED MY 1ST PRO!

my exams are over. done. finished.

results out by friday!

Absolutely BENGANG!

I thought I could stay away from this page, but what has happened just now infuriates me to bits that I have to defy my previous declaration.

I vow to never deal with this *'H company' ever again nor will I promote it to the juniors.

As my batch is on the verge of entering our clinical years, we have been busy acquiring the necessary medical equipments. Somehow, I was 'lucky' enough to have become the person in-charge of it all.

Confused by the different companies and their offers, I was attracted by this particular company. The owner had a sister who was a 3rd year med student. Dealing with this kakak, I invested my trust in her and promoted the products offered by her bro's company. In the beginning, there was only this company. Later, the competition began and we started to get some bargain prices for the stethoscope. Alhamdulillah that's over with. So are the tendon hammer and the white coat deals.

But this H company was the only one we were buying the BP sets and diagnostic sets from (I didn't buy them, but my friends did). They, (my friends) are most enthusiastic about buying the BP sets for personal reasons. The price of these products are certainly not cheap, but they wanted them anyway. No sample was provided and we just had to have faith in the company that it was the best offer they could give. She's a senior med student, she must surely know which one is good, or so i thought. (note to self, one must never be too trusting)

This entire ordeal has been going on for the last two to three months. It involved scouting, confirming, promoting, getting the name list, confirming again, collecting money and ordering the products. Alhamdulillah I had help from Anis, Faiezah and Aida who were kind enough to agree to collect the huge sum of money for me. I don’t think I could have handled that kind of stress alone.

So now, just this evening in fact, i received a message informing me that the order had arrived and I was to go collect it. I was quite excited despite not having ordering anything.

After Aida and I had collected the items from the senior’s room, we went over the stuff, scrutinizing them. That’s when we noticed the pen torches. It was the same kind that my other classmates bought for RM12.50 and they charged us RM26 for it. My god, that’s sheer treachery. When I messaged that senior, she called to say that it was the genuine stuff and was imported all the way from USA. Hah, I think they should check back their supplier. When I confronted her and compared the items before her, she realized that I was right. I’m dreading the task of telling my classmates this matter.

After isya’, I had to go see ustaz with Faizah to settle some matter.

Then, Aida came to my room and showed me the BP set which had some problems. Sigh! what else could be wrong? The arm cuffs were rather big and couldn’t be fastened tightly. We went together to see the senior. After testing it out and confirming for herself the truth behind our claims, she began to beat about the bush without actually coming up with a solution. Nganga je kitorang kat situ. She had the nerve to go on talking with her friends in front of us. Seeing the situation as it was, we excused ourselves.

Fumed as I am, I can barely study. The clock keeps ticking. But I have to ease my anger and frustration. My friends are busy. I’m supposed to be busy too. Busy studying. But i just cannot study.

*(the name has been changed to protect the company which doesn't seem worth protecting actually)

12.30 am
05/04/06

Pray for me!

the last Pbl session with Dr Imad.

this will be my last post before exams. cannot afford anymore internet time. haven't much to share with anyone anyways. there's stacks of files and notes to be covered in less than 2 weeks.

Dr Naznin said that the rule of thumb is whoever manages to pass every block, insyaAllah can pass 1st pro... that helps me breathe a little easier. all i need to do now is focus on proving that statement true.

Please pray for me everyone.

i need all the prayer i can get.