just married.

i am married! hehe

nantilah i'll upload pics.

i'm grateful that all the presents that i received are very useful ones for my new home iA. will put up list later.

wow! another 2 days.

a lot of people have been asking me whether i'm nervous or not and telling me that they rase berdebar2.

of course i am nervous. i'm terrified to bits. i will have to care about someone else other than myself. i will have to discuss my every decision and action with him. i'll have to live somewhere i've never even been to. if i do something wrong, i cant go running to my family. its a life-changing event.

at first, i didnt feel anything as there was much to do. now its just two days away, and there's still loads to do. alhamdulillah kakyung's coming home tonight. cant wait to see nawaz. more heads for opinions and more hands to do the work.

everyday lots of people come to the house to help out. good thing mak has 2 usrah groups. so twice a week, the makciks help package the goody bags. yesterday, some makciks came to help gubah bunga. after looking through and clearing up some boxes and also the store, mak found some unused plastics flowers. mak cik maziah and makcik ah is a whiz at menggubah flowers. she used an old, worn out basket of ours to put some assorted flowers and it looks absolutely beautiful. i dont have talent in that area at all so i leave it to those who love to do it. mak pun got into the menggubah craze and spent a lot of time on it so we have lots of plastic flowers at home.

because of the extraordinary amount of cleaning that needed to be done, mak had to outsource and panggil org datang kemas rumah. so nibah and i prepared lunch. i made kari ikan and sambal ikan bilis and tempe.

in the afternoon, we made apple crumble. hehe, sempat gak buat. the oven memang panas sebelah so we had to turn it manually. the custard was a bit lumpy but sedap nonetheless. it wasnt that hard to do.





there's still lots of desserts that kakchik and i have been dreaming of doing but asyek malas nak buat. we've already bought the ingredients. nantilah.

our house just had an extreme makeover. it is very different from before. ayah spent a fortune on it. plus the wedding expenses, its burning a hole in mak and ayah's bank books and pockets. i wish i had money to give them to help out but i've used up all of my scholarship money and depleted some of my tabung haji savings. i so have to work and make up for the expenses bit by bit.

with regards to the bilik pengantin, 2 makcik's came to give their opinion on how the things in the room should be arranged. so the existing cupboard has to go out and we have to take a smaller one from the other room in exchange. the last time we had to rearrange cupboards was exactly last year. now we had to do it again. penat sangat keluarkan everything and moving the cupboards then rearranging things back into them.

mak asked me where are my friends. why arent they around to lend a helping hand. i cant expect my kuantan friends to help out because everyone's far away and have their own lives to settle. and i cant expect my batch of schoolmates to help out because they're all working now and have their own activities to do. so i have to rely on kakchik's friends to come over and do whatever is necessary.

i pray that everything will go well nanti.

my days

since nibah is enjoying herself in pahang and the only ones left at home are me and kakchik, we have to follow mak everywhere.

2 days ago, the hantarans were ready. since the only sister with creative blood is still in KL, we have to outsource and rely on expert people who enjoys spending two hours trying to match the color tones of the flowers and ribbons to be used. the 2 makciks gave very specific instructions of what to add, how to arrange them and how to make them look natural rather than kaku. wow! and they worried that the whole thing was too simple. i dared imagine how it would look if they went all out in the decorations. they are safely kept at makchik fati's house away from peeping eyes. everyone was leka berbual and we went back late.

ayah came home yesterday and we went to pasar malam taman u, prayed at masjid taman u where ayah met the imam who will be the tok kadi and then we went to giant to buy some more stuff.

this morning, we followed ayah to his chiropractic treatment and then went to larkin to look for tudungs and had brunch. then ayah went home by taxi as he wanted to play golf so we mak, kakchik and me went to mydin then angsana. at kamdar, kakchik and i played about with the stuff there while mak looked for her table cloth which she didnt find.



i think the hat matches my tudung


kakchik looking suave in the cowboy hat (see mak in the background busy looking for table cloths)


mak's using sticky notes now to keep track of to-do things


the hantarans are ready yay! very2 cantek they are.


the attempted shepperd's pie that has no pie crust, only potatoes, stuffing and a cheese topping.

cleaning

it's not that i haven't got time to update, its just that i go all blank when i want to.

since i came home, nearly everyday keluar rumah. ikut mak g sukan tadika. pegi pusat islam selesaikan borang2 (yay, didnt have to be interviewed coz the clerk knew mak). pegi jusco or giant every other day. pergi pasar malam. hantar kad to jiran2. gi pasar with kakchik beli ayam, ikan and sayur2. pegi kedai jahit makcik noi kat senai. pegi sukan wanita jim. kuar dinner with family.

i try to do everything with my sisters while i can. lepas ni susah dah.

at home, there's so much to clean and sort out i.e the overflowing clothes, the disordered books, the clutter in the house. and we keep buying more stuff.

i need to clean out some space for my 4 boxes of notes that i didnt have time to go thru in kuantan.

i remember one lady featured in Oprah who had a compulsion for buying. her house was extremely cluttered to the point of being inhabitable for the family. Oprah sent a "clutter expert" and he managed to get out all the stuff and arranged them in a yard, boleh buat yard sale. about 10 feet of stuff. makcik tu bile tgk her piles of stuff terkejut and menangis to see herself in that state. then the oprah team repaired and refurnished her house and since then she changed over a new leaf and kept her house as clean and tidy as possible. moral of the story is: too much clutter can clutter the mind too.

dr awla

it was the longest 2 minutes of my life, waiting for them to announce the results of the students whom have passed. we were all gathered at around 12.45pm, thursday. my name was among the last to be called.i was holding my breath and sucking in my stomach. it was such a relief when my name was finally mentioned. ALHAMDULILLAH. our exams was not without casualties. 2 of the brothers have to re-sit for the exams in 6 months time. they're good students. maybe Allah wants to give them this challenge to make them stronger and more strong-willed to face life's challenges ahead.

lepas tu i happily gave out my wedding cards to my friends. nanti i'll scan the card and post it here. syahadah and sibah were busy giving out their cards too. orang lain punye tak siap lagi.

petang tu there was a program for the graduating students (my batch and a few sciences students). terharunya dr melor went to greta lengths to organise the program so that we'd remain in the tarbiyah system. i cant really imagine myself outside of it. i'd be lost. there was amaanats form ustz fadzil konsis, dr latif and dr munawwar hatta. best sangat. it put things back in persepctive.

then when the program ended, our juniors in the usrah system came and performed nasheed for us, prepared a slideshow presentation of the activities done together and gave us all personalized gifts. i menangis2 terharu. huhu. asyek terharu je sejak akhir2 nih.

i look forward to the days ahead.