a crappy entry

it feels like ages since i've updated this blog. mesti orang dah malas nak visit dah.. so what, it's mine anyway.

i've gotten some feedback from my sisters on my blog. derang tak larat bace coz of all the medical jargon i use. takde sape paham. habis tuh, i am supposed to be a med student, takkan tanak practice what i learn, how else am i supposed to improve?

ok, dear sisters of mine, i'll try to a little more of explaining. do read on eh.

for strangers, i highly discourage u from proceeding because this entry contains improper usage of language, incoherent narrations of events and issues u might not understand at all. u have been warned.
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a lot has happened since my last entry. the raya holidays were wonderful but too short and then the starting of a new block, Y2B3. each day i'm reminded of how close the 1st professional exams are. they're in April 2006, 17th to 19th... seramnye!

Y2B3 or year 2 block 3 is all about endocrinology (all about hormones) and reproduction (everything to do with it, the female and male genitalia, the physiology related to it, diseases and all)... macam obscene sket this block. but, what to do, it's a subject which is unavoidable by everyone, kene go through it gak.

since we started last week, my life has been so hectic. i'm always very tired and that has nothing to do with fasting. there's a lot of changes happening. due to our poor and worrying performance,
the anatomy lecturers are on our case because the clinical lecturers especially the surgeons think that our grasp of anatomy is very poor and patchy. so now we have to draw everything and have more assignments and everything will be assessed. no more coming to tutorials in a blurred condition. you either read or not come at all. no more handouts (but some secretly give, hehe).

ever since last monday, it's been a full week. full lectures, everyday. so much to read and revise. my studygroup mates have decided to try out a new study plan. we wanted to utilize the wee hours of the morning for our discussions so that we'd wake up early and it wouldn't disturb the precious study hours of the night.

until now, we have only had two successful sessions, even that were with one or two absentees. on two or three occasions, only sibah woke up and the rest , myself included, didn't manage to wake up early. we're considering of ceasing this plan, but we'll prolly try it out for another week or two.

let's proceed to some delightful news (or it should be actually). Jim Pahang's organizing a mukhayyam next week at Tasik Bera, Pahang. we (meaning the karisma urusetia tanpa syura with pakcik2) named it Mukhayyam Ramsar 2005 - cam sedap kan :) it's a major event that will involve all levels of age groups including pakcik makcik, karisma, krj and aulad. initially it was meant to be solely for karisma but then due to the high cost of the place, the pakcik's decided on this combination. at first, myself, sibah and aishah weren't involved with the planning at all until kak jan told us that we were required to give our opinion on the tentative. that was during our revision week last block. only then did we know that we were to be the urusetia. we've been kept busy ever since.

this is the first camp that i've been to that we have to take prophylaxis for malaria lest we get infected. we have to take fansidar and chloroquine a week before the camp (which was last friday). there are side effects such as GI disturbances, rashes and of course Steven Johnson Syndrome, but alhamdulillah i had not experienced any of it, or maybe tak perasan.

now i know how hard it is to organize such a major camp. it involves so many things and so many detailes have to be considered. i remember going to such a camp organized by jim johor in 1993 and 1994. since i was still in primary school at that time, i was oblivious to how much effort was called for to ensure it's success. hmm, now i know.

last saturday, we convoyed two cars to the camp site. pak cik azam, pakcik ibrahim, faizal (k-pahang's president), rizal (kpm), hawa and hidayah (polisas) and six of us from uia including firdaus. we wanted to try out the activities beforehand and see the place.

promoting this mukhayyam to the members was kinda hard. many couldn't go because of exams or clashes with other obligations and some who simply dislike outdoor activities. we have only female partcipants from uia and polisas and males from kpm and kuktem, tu pun tak pasti. geram gak with pakcik makcik coz they can't give us a proper extimate of how many will be involved. kat pahang ni berape kerat je orang.. balik2 orang tu jugak. but they always wait until the very last minute ti daftar. esok program hari ni bagi name. susah gak macam ni.

agak sedih jugak kondisi k-pahang ini. the IPTs here have either only ikhwah members or akhawat members. UIA and Polisas have akhawat majority and seciput of ikhwah, tu pun baru 1st year. KPM and KUKTEM plak ramai ikhwah. entah lah, that's just how it is.

after a whole day at the tasik bera resort, we decided to have another follow up meeting on sunday afternoon to smoothen things out. sibah, aishah and i worked through the night to complete the mukhayyam booklet and going over the details. they came to my room when i'd just barely switched off my lights to call it a night. i was forced to wake up and finish the work. before the meeting, we went to kak ju's open house and barely made it in time for the meeting. i brought my laptop and somehow halfway through the meeting it died on me. i didn't realized it was out of battery. and then it refused to start. sedihnya. benci kalau comp rosak. even my thumbdrive which was in the comp when it went bonkers showed symptoms of being unwell. terpakse gune pakcik husni's.

i'd just managed to rearrange my room before going to kak ju's and now it has a new look (copy sibah's arrangement). we're not allowed to rearrange any part of the room actually but ramai je buat and a new surrounding kinda gives me a fresh new feeling and a sense of satisfaction and pleasure. despite the great and time-consuming effort and required to do it, it's just one of those things i had to do or my mind would forever be contemplating it.

the mukhayyam meeting ended just before maghrib. imagine how tired i was by then. i still had my laundry to attend to and my still not-so-clean room to deal with. after buying dinner at the cafe and returning pakcik's laptop, i just got to know of my PBL discussion which was to be held in a few minutes time. i hadn't had time to read what i'd done or researched more on the case. ( it was on pituitary adenoma. the patient had features of acromegaly due to excessive production of growth hormones). dahlah our group had Dr Naznin, one of the lecturers well known for her strictness and frightening PBL sessions.

it's nik aishah's birthday today, so according to tradition, we'd go to her room and give her a present just before 12am and spend time berbual and eat whatever yang ade. tak leh lelame coz i still had a hito drawing to complete which was to be submitted today and also a PBL session to prepare for.

so now, that PBL session is over. it wasn't too bad. doctor tak marah me so i guess it was ok. with that burden off my shoulders i can relax a bit and breathe a little easy.

ok, i still have some things to see to so i'll end this long and crappy entry here.

ps.. if u are experiencing symptoms of a headache after reading thus far, u might want to undergo a CT scan or MRI to check if u have a pituitary tumor. haha. at least i won't be the only one with a headache :)