h.o at 6 weeks of life.

it's been 6 weeks of work already including 2 tagging weeks. i've had 10 calls already for this month alone plus one more tomorrow on merdeka day.

i havent received my salary yet and am relying on hubby for my expenses.

i havent been following the news much.

i've become immune to the crying and screams of babies and kids and endeavor to complete my work as fast as i can. balut je or bedung je budak tu and cucuk them to get the required blood or to insert a branula. sounds kejam, i know.

i'm still quite slow and not as efficient as is expected of me.

i have learnt that there are some people who smile in front of u and later stab u in the back. so we stick with ppl we trust and be wary of those who are potential backstabbers. each level sticks with their own kind; housemen with housemen, m.o's with m.o's and specialists with specialists.

because of the EOD (every other day) oncalls, i am constantly tired and it affects my tarawikh and amalan sunat. balik to my inlaws pun jadi hi-hi bye bye je. salam bile sampai waktu malam and then salam again before i go to work.

if i get some sleep during my calls and patients come in the middle of the night, and i bangun mamai2, lambat sket clerk the cases.

i've had to break my fast 3 times at the hospital until now. rase macam tak meriah je. and solat sorang2 bile sempat. and asyek lupe nak bawa quran so tak dpt bace.

i so have to improve meself and not let this ramadhan slip away just like that.

last week, the hot issue was oncalls during raya so all of us muslim h.o's in the dept have to be oncall either on raya eve or 2nd day of raya. i chose the latter.

i am currently back home in skudai with all me sisters. glad for the weekend off and dreading to go back to klang and going to work tomorrow.

i am extremely glad that i am married. having hubby around helps a lot. i love him terribly. sian dia for getting a dr wife. lots of downsides rather than benefits.

k, thats all for now.