DE-STRESSING

I guess if we have high expectations, then we are at risk of getting hurt when it doesn’t turn out the way we want it to be. It’s easier to not feel at all, but then we won’t feel happy too.

I should’ve learnt that from past experiences with people. Getting your hopes up can be bad for you when it doesn’t happen the way you want it to. You’re the one feeling sad and frustrated in the end. At least, if you don’t hope for something, then when you get it, you’ll be happy.

(i.e. when people don’t send you postcards… hehe… Ramzi, you’ll send me one from Aussie nanti kan)

I’m not really the social type who has many friends but the ones that I do befriend, I hold on to very dearly. I don’t really share much about personal stories except with the very (x100) close ones. Friendship is not a one-sided thing. It takes two people working at it for it to flourish. Some people you know all your life but you’re not close to them and some people you’ve just met and it’s as if you’ve known each other forever. Maintenance is important. How? Just a simple message once in a while or making a little extra effort to show that you care is enough to uplift one’s spirits.

I guess I thought that when I invest in my friend by going personal, she would do the same. My bad. Never assume. It’s bad for the health.

It may seem inappropriate for me to be making a fuss out of a simple negligence on my friend’s part (whether intentional or unintentional) to share her wondrous news with me, but my injured heart cannot be persuaded by my rational mind (mainly becoz of my neurotic nature or menses yang tak datang2). It’s a big deal to me. My friend didn’t think that I would want to be happy for her. Now, its’ not gonna be the same. “why didn’t see tell me?” keeps ringing loud and clear in my head.

An apologetic SMS doesn’t really help.

I was fuming the whole afternoon. I just had to let out some of this frustration.

So the following were my let-outs;

1. A yummy chocolate chip ice cream cone
2. A delicious peanut butter & chocolate waffle.
3. Jogging at taman Bandar with Faizah Amir and pouring my steaming heart out (she’s a terribly good comforter…hehe)
4. Calling up kak yung, nibah and kak chik
5. Sending SMS’s to my friends yang dah lame tak message
6. Mengumpat dengan my roommate (she’s more neurotic than me, hehe)
7. Writing this thing

According to kakyung and my roommate, my hurt is justified. Cool.

Moral of the story:

Appreciate your family and friends. If they can bear with you during your monthly psychotic phases, then it is worth going the extra mile for them too!